There is no future if there is no now

I was sitting in my hammock about one month in. I was just thinking and was hit with a, “What am I still doing here, I want to get out there and preach the gospel already!” The next day I combatted my own thoughts with,” It’s no coincidence I’m here at this Gap year,(where training is 3 Months instead of 10 days)the Lord will move each and every day I’m the remaining two months I’ve just got to focus on him and what his reality for my life is rather then the potential that I project my future could hold.” Later that day the Lord said something to me that was so profound he said,” There is no future if there is no now.” How can I imagine a future of speaking the truth to people when I’m not listening to the truth spoken to me now I’m this very hour. I took what the Lord told me and I solidified it in my mind heart and soul, so much so that I didn’t want to think about what I’d do after the race and solely focused on my time in the race. I went overboard with it, so much so that when the Lord showed me what he has next for my I said no I’m focusing on the now. It took a week before I finally sat down and talked to the Lord about it. I said,” Ok God, it’s time to address the elephant in the room what do you want me to do with the Free Burma Rangers.” God responded ,” You already know what I want you to do.” I just sat there, if you could see me in that room my face and posture became the embodiment of the word ,Yep. After I had given my desire to the Lord of joining the Free Burma Rangers, one of my squadmates comes to me and says ,”I know a guy who was in the F.B.R. if you’d like I can get you in contact with him.” I gave my desire to the Lord and I felt as though he gave it right back to me, but I refused to pick it up I told myself ,”I’ll talk to the lord about it after the race.” More and more opportunities kept popping up that pointed to the F.B.R. and I finally addressed it with the Lord full well knowing the answer to my question. So now I ask you. Is the Lord tugging on your heart and you know it but refuse to acknowledge it? I’d encourage you to turn around and press into the father because he goes before you to prep the way.